| imuxi |
[Nov. 21st, 2005|10:25 am] |
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if only she liked surprises |
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| restraining order |
[Nov. 20th, 2005|09:55 pm] |
duh heartface: you missed out on the best thing that ever happened to you
duh heartface: things could have been so different |
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| WATCH OUT |
[Nov. 17th, 2005|10:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  quixotic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | TECH N9NE | ] |
cause here comes tecca nina |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 1st, 2005|08:35 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
best halloween ever almost
^_^ |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 23rd, 2005|11:21 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  scared | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the moldy peaches | ] |
i fucked up badly. possession of xanax, marijuana, and paraphernalia.
bailed out of jail. court date coming soon. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 23rd, 2005|07:20 pm] |
i have a problem and im sorry to everyone.
especially you and you and you. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 6th, 2005|07:24 pm] |
I like giving my girlfriend kisses but not you kisses.
Probably cause your nose isn't as cute.
Yeah, the guy on wheel of fortune almost lost a turn.
Park roasted coffee beans, bye. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 1st, 2005|09:40 am] |
goodbye lexapro
hello zoloft
hello sexual side effects. |
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| help |
[Jun. 11th, 2005|06:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blank | ] |
i want to stab myself in the face
the ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree, but still hold hands
if only i wasn't such an invalid.
if only forgetting you was as easy as loving you.
dont worry -- it'll take a lifetime to forget you. |
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| back home |
[May. 2nd, 2005|01:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  aggravated | ] |
lez beat poet + debbie ann baez = ~~~~~~ |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 17th, 2005|12:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | drained | ] |
liquor stores run by foreign people =)
-_-
OUR LAWS ARE STRANGE AND UNKNOWN TO THEM.
-_-
ASK ME WAT I DID LAST NIGHT |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 14th, 2005|05:14 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bitchy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | love rhymes with hidious car wreck | ] |
panera fired me |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 12th, 2005|12:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | flashbacks | ] |
| [ | music |
| | arcade fire | ] |
_DEBBINA TAKE OFF MY PANTS THEY'RE HURTING MEE |
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| serotonin syndrome |
[Apr. 10th, 2005|09:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | And You Will Know Us By The Trail Of Dead | ] |
I really don't know why I ramble in here incoherantly as if I'm going to discover the answer to whatever is on my mind when I finish spilling it out.
But I digress.
I don't know what is bothering me anymore. Something happened last night that caused me to reexamine a couple of things. And then I started ridiculous bouts of analysis that made me cry myself to sleep like a pussy. Which is pathetic and I hate myself for it. I hate being weak, but I am. And maybe admitting that is some sort of rebirth of strength, but probably not. In fact, I know what most of my vague problems are and how to fix them. But I never have the initiative or effort to. I can be happy, but I just don't take the time to. Not to say that I'm completely miserable either. It just comes in spurts. I thought I was strong. Really strong - void of all drama and stress and feelings of inadequacy. But I'm weak. I have no control over anything. That scares me.
All melodramatic cliched stereotypes aside, I have become a monster.
I don't like giving in but I totally could want a girlfriend.
Drunken hookups are real awesome and all...but they won't sit with you holding you up when you puke. Or make you breakfast.
Maybe I will go hunting tommarow.
my house is a mess. last party here for a long while.
When it's good, it's really good.
When it's bad, it's really bad.
The latter is in the majority
I know it's okay to be sad once in a while, but this is getting ridiculous.
I want to throw my face into a meat grinder. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 31st, 2005|11:57 am] |
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remember when i said my life was *almost* complete?
( well... )
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 27th, 2005|10:42 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  groggy | ] |
can't say i'm not jealous. why is this happening again? |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 24th, 2005|10:35 am] |
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I fucking hate psychology. I WANT TO SLEEP GODDAMMIT GODDAMNIT GODDAMMIT GODDAMNIT GODDAMNIT I HATE KiDS AND COGNITIVE DEVELOPMENT AND WHATEVER I DON"T CARE I WANT SLEEP I AM DELIRIOUS DIEDIEDIEIDEIDIEIDIEIDIEE |
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